Simpler Life – Realities and Expectations!

I believe we always wanted our lives to be simpler and less complicated. I don’t know since when we actually start memorising the events but I still think that’s what we wanted.

Probably when we were in Nursery, we wanted all those 26 letters to become less in number so that we could master more easily and fast. Some of us probably even stripped away some letters when we were asked to repeat. A step ahead, we had to learn about words. Complex words than those small single letters. Then, sentences were introduced. Paragraphs with long sentences full of words and hundreds of letters were there.

In the next stage, we were asked to compete some imaginary shits where that x always tend to lost somewhere and unknown. We had to find that thing as if we didn’t it would cause the next world war. Later on y and even z joined them. We are doing all those things in the hope of simpler life.

We were in school. Somehow enjoying life without even knowing what enjoyment was. We always thought the life was simpler ahead. So, wished this boring school life to end so that life will be simple without “x” playing hide and seek with us.

The hope of simpler life was the only thing that kept me going. Seriously, I had no idea why I was going to school, trying hard to get good marks, trying even more harder to top the school. All in the hope of simpler life.

We were then in college life. Still waiting for the simplicity.

In contrast, the life was getting complicated day by day. From the day, we stepped into this world. The every day was more complex, more hard to explain and understand.

Words were complex than letters, so were the paragraphs with sentences. You realized the hide and seek of “x”, “y”, “z” was nothing but mere climax of what was going to happen.

The college life you waited days and night was no more freedom or anything like that. It was a burden. Full of responsibilities. You had to worry about further education. Too much of confusion was there.

Simpler were those days of childhood when you could sleep whole day without being irritated by someone else. You were instead helped to sleep better.

Life is whatever. I’m not the right guy to give some sugar coated answer which would make a history changing quotes. BUT

Don’t let life randomly kick you into the adult you don’t want to become

I read that above line somewhere on internet. I don’t remember the source though.

That’s it. Life was never supposed to be fair. It is not even that complex.

Nepal Earthquake 2015 Insights

This post originally appeared on question-answer site, Quora, answering the question “Is there anyone on Quora who was in Nepal at the time of the earthquake who could give us insights on how it felt?”

I’m from Pokhara, Nepal.

I experienced the earthquake here. Though pokhara is not much affected with physical destruction. People here are still mentally disturbed.

Before earthquake, I was watching television. Then suddenly cable went off. I felt a small tremble. Initially, I thought it was because of the vehicles passing through the road. Moreover, I had experienced another earthquake few days ago. So I didn’t bother to do something. But in next moment, electricity went off and I felt strong tremble.

Then I somehow reached to roads as it was the only open space nearby. When I reached there, I found many people were already there. Since I had never experienced quake of more than few seconds, I had thought it would stop. But it lasted more than 60 seconds. I was looking at the buildings nearby which were shaking heavily. People were trying to jump off buildings. Sounds were being produced due to shaking of buildings. I felt like I was being shaked and my legs were moving itself.

After the earthquake, I lost electricity and internet connectivity for more than 10 hours. Situation was more worsened by the rumors. Every other people down the street was acting like seismologist. People spent the nights in tent for next 2 days. Currently the situation is kind of normal now.

Getting away from Internet!

It feels so weird after deactivating Faceboook, Twitter and Quora accounts in row. I had no idea what was going inside my mind. I just started with deactivating Facebook leaving message to few of my friends that I won’t be available on Facebook and ended up deactivating Quora account too. It feels so strange. I feel like I have nothing to do with internet.

It is probably not more than 4 years since I started using Internet. As kid, I thought doing blogging and a bit of coding was fancy thing to tell people around me. I never really got deeper idea of anything. I was just trying about everything possible without proper guideline. Even after 4 years, it’s same. I think I am conscious internet user just because I know how internet can be used for one’s benefit. I didn’t even use internet that way for myself too.

I don’t know when I became addicted to internet. When ever I opened Google Chrome in my laptop, first thing I used to do was opening Facebook to check some cool pictures of my friends, some useless conversations and some more useless notifications inviting me to play Candy Crush and most amazing part was those notifications used to claim that “they would find who would be my valentine for this year”. As I coder, I knew that was just random thing. After getting bored from Facebook, I used to open new tab to pretend if I was working which never produced any significance result.

Then again it was turn for twitter. Open twitter, if someone I knew was on timeline then I used that some other useless conversation. RT-ing programming related stuff to pretend I was a programmer which I never succeeded to be.

Lastly it was turn of quora. Click on new tab and open quora. Then another form of non-productive work. I know Quora was supposed to be productive but what if someone just opens up Quora to procrastinate. I was proud, actually very proud of what I have done in my age. I feel like idiot now thinking all those things. I used to read answers by famous people. Again I never really implemented those things in real life.

After getting bored by Quora, I used to open Facebook in another tab without realizing Facebook was already open in another tab of the same browser. This is the sequence of events I followed every day as my schedule which truly destroyed the path I was trying to follow.

After deactivating Facebook I realized that whenever I saw my beautiful new tab page. I opened up Facebook instantly. Whenever I had some kind of stupid questions on my mind, I used to open Quora instantly and same goes for Twitter. It was the way of living for me. Check Facebook updates, Twitter conversations, Quora notifications and the internet was over.

This doesn’t mean I wasn’t trying to do some works to gain experience. As a high school student I was trying to develop some websites for clients just as to gain some confidence. But again I never completed any of them. Most of them were made in last 1 day of deadline and I never looked at them after them. There were so many problems existing in those system which I never cared. That is how I lived my life. Never completing anything I starte…

This is a small story of mine and I am writing here without any purpose. I would have written this most probably either in Facebook or Twitter if I had not deactivated any one of them. Now it feels I have no place to express my feeling. So, my old blog with no content was the proper solution 😀

To those who noticed my wrong structures of sentences formations. I’m not a native English speaker. I live in country where I have to teach my teacher to use correct tense and spelling!

Fifa World Cup 2014 Fever

It’s almost 3 am and I didn’t wake up in the middle of night to watch the world cup matches. I have been awake since last day and doing things I love 😀 It’s been only a few days I have been back from 10 Days Vipassana Meditation Camp and I found the world cup fever was already there and many people were already affected by that. Here I am writing my view and I don’t expect every other people out there support my view. After all, different people view the same thing with different perception. 😀 Yeah even our brain sees the same things with different perception depending upon the time and situation :p

Yes, I was never interested to any kinda sports but that doesn’t mean I will be writing this post to show my hatred towards anything or anyone. All I knew was computer gaming, which I still love and play when I get some free time 😀 . Once again world cup fever was back and I hadn’t any excitement like the previous one 😛 Many of my friends started posting photos on social medias with jersey of favorite team of their. I was just looking at them and trying just not to analyze them with my foolish ideas 😛 Yeah, I admit that 😀

I love programming and finding the actual logic behind that program. But even after wandering for several weeks I couldn’t found that proper logic for the people with the brain who support some country and were fighting the social medias posting with rude comments -_- . Entertainment ? I know that word too 😛 Obviously there are many other ways to entertain. I don’t even mean that stop watching football and start programming till late night like me 😛 . It may be good for you to support some specific country with your own logic but that is not necessarily right for others too. All the people don’t have the same brain inside them. Support the country with you best player or logic of your own but have you people ever thought what your activities are helping or promoting ? In some online news firm I found that some of the people in Kathmandu, the capital city Nepal started motorbike rally with Brazil jersey with the intention to show that they support Brazil. Are they all fucking dumb? Seriously, FIFA is not gonna decide winner with the number of people participating the bike rally in favor of certain country.

OK, I have been showing all the negative aspects of doing this and that. What about the positive things people could have done ? I don’t know how may of the Brazil supporter or Fifa World cup lover are aware of this – Brazilians are protesting against the world cup and there’s a great reason behind that. 250, 000 poor Brazilians were forced to leave their places to construct stadiums and other infrastructures for world cup 2014. If the people in any part of world cup are supporting this and that country and wasting money for those kinda bike rallys, they can do something for them. They can try to raise the attention of Brazilian government or FIFA about the problem. Obviously, it was just an example and there are a lots of things people can do.

Support any country with your own logic but don’t expect every other people will be supporting the same country. Entertainment is always necessary in life and these kinda sports events entertain people but there’s nothing you gain by hating certain country. You may gain some pleasure for sometime if the team you supporting wins 😀 .

10 Days Vipassana Meditation Camp Experience

I know I should I have written this post earlier or may be later too. It may be because I am kinda interested to doing things earlier than other do 😛 Well, well coming back to the point, I had set my goals for this year 2014 in back November 2013. One of my ambitious goal was to attend 10 Days Vipassana meditation camp for 3 times within this year 😀 Now I have realised how foolish it might have sound to the people who have attended Vipassana. The most interesting part was I was having trouble to get in because of my age. Now I don’t think attending for 3 times a year in this age will be possible unless I go for meditation in different camps hiding my ages and I can’t do that 😀

Back in April 2014, Deep Rana sir and I filled up the form for attending the course which was going to held in June 01 – June 12. Deep got registration but I didn’t. Now I think it was probably because of the automated system detecting the age I entered there. By coincidence, Deep also skipped the confirmation part which in turn left two of us to be in waiting list.

June 01
I was really very excited to go to meditation camp since I had failed to get in my last attempt. But after knowing about the tedious confirmation process and age barrier my excitement had decreased. At about 9 am I woke up, had bath and get dressed. Deep Rana sir came to pickup me and we were on bike journey to Lekhnath now. I was feeling great because I had been preparing for board exam for last 2 – 3 months and wasn’t even out 😛 We reached the camp by 12 and waited till 2 pm to check whether we will be able to get in or not. To be honest, after watching the arrival of other people I was nearly convinced that we have to return back and that was not true 😀 . Deep Rana sir wasn’t ready to give up hone and we were in 😛 I was very happy and excited again. After getting to the residential quarter, my excited to lowered incredibly as I found I had no other thing to do except sleeping 😛 I had to deposit my cell phone and other things in the registration process there.

June 02 – June 10
I know well that I can’t even explain the inner aspect of Vipassana meditation even if I try hard. Vipassana focuses on experience rather than the discourses. All I can say is you have to follow the daily routine from 4:00 am to 9:00 pm. You will be doing meditation for whole 12 hours a day. You will be provided with facilities good enough to perform your other daily activities. The camp will provide you with food and accommodation in the residential quarter. Regarding fooding, I found that the timing weren’t that good compared to my daily schedule 😛 You will be provided breakfast at 6 : 30 am , lunch at 11 : 00 am and tea at 5 : 00 pm. For me, it was kinda difficult to adjust for few days as we Nepalese eat heavy lunch and dinner 😛 . You will also have to follow several rules and one of the rule is maintaining Noble Silence. It’s not related to Noble prize but you can gain much more than that if you followed this properly . You aren’t allowed to speak with any other meditatior not even facial expressions 😛

June 11
It was like the golden day. I think diamond is better 😛 . This was the day when the rule of Noble Silence breaks and you can speak with anyone you like 😛 . You will realize the importance of speech that day 😛 . I talked with other people till 11 pm that day 😀

June 12
The Vipassana Camp formally ended at morning that day and we were now coming back to Pokhara again. I don’t know why but I felt like I had not ever been that place though we had gone with the same way I was trying to notice changes within myself.

After noticing myself for few days, I found a great change within myself and I was satisfied with the result. I will surely attend Vipassana meditation as soon as I get some free time. I will also recommend this meditation techniques to anyone who want to get free from sorrows and became Buddha. I am not writing anything about the things I have learned there because this meditation technique focuses on knowing things by experience. Keep in mind one thing ” Everything is Aniccha ” Aniccha !!

My Journey to Internet

I was eagerly waiting to write this post here in my first ever blog made to share my personal thoughts and beliefs. After being to blogosphere and internet world for around more than 3 years, I learned many new things and made many new friends. I made few blogs, learned WordPress theme development and many other things which I am going to mention in my blog posts.

So, Who Actually Am I ?

It’s kinda difficult to describe yourself 😛 Our own identity is not just about the name or the things we do neither the qualification we have 😀 I think it’s beyond writing to express our identity.

hahah simply I’m Rajeeb Banstola. I’m a school student from Pokhara Nepal who has passion for Internet and want to do earn living through Internet. Being a school student, my current income from internet is just not more than a source of pocket money for me as I mostly spend most of my time reading, learning and experimenting new things.

I am currently reading in Grade 11 Science Stream in Pokhara Higher Secondary School located in Bagar Pokhara.

Currently learning WordPress Theme Development, Entrepreneurial skills and many more.
I am currently involved in a team called dStars